I bought size 16 jeans this weekend, and it didn't feel good

Ah, clothing sizes. My goal is to get to a size 10 at some the stores I often shop at -- Ann Taylor, New York and Company, Fashion Bug, etc. I really don't care much what I weigh, as long as I fit into that size 10. OK, that's not really true. I want to weigh under 150.

This weekend I was shopping at the aforementioned Fashion Bug for jeans. If you've never shopped there, be warned, that the quality of most of the clothing there isn't great. It's really only good for two things - jeans, which are affordable and seem to fit me really well and fad-type clothing that you are probably only going to wear for a season or two.

They have these "secret slimmer" jeans that fit me perfectly. Seriously, they make my butt look fab. (That picture isn't of me, but it is of the jeans!)

So, I head out the door Saturday to return some things I had bought online there (I have a slight online shopping addiction but I often end up returning things) and to pick up a new pair of secret slimmer jeans. Why? Because my size 14 jeans don't fit! To be honest, I had convinced myself they shrunk in the wash.

But, they didn't.

I am in the dressing room when I realize the size 14s really don't fit. So I suck it up and get the 16s. It was a blow, for sure, since that's never a size I've worn before. I am familiar with 14-land, but 16 is different.

I was a bit down in the dumps after my shopping trip. I could have said screw it and eaten a cupcake. But I didn't. I stuck to Weight Watchers this weekend, even coming in under my allotted points one day. I know coming in under points isn't good, but trust me, it won't happen again.

I also worked out every day, which made me very proud. I am going to be fit and healthy regardless of what size I am.

November goals, some more about me

I have a love/hate relationship with Weight Watchers. I know it works, but all of the tracking can get to me sometimes. Also, why does wine have to be so many points? I will admit to not counting a glass or two here and there.

But, that is the thing with me and Weight Watchers. Even when I am not perfect at it, I still lose. Slowly, of course, but that's always been my way. I think it took me 6 months to lose 20 lbs in 2004. And well, I was in my 20's then.

Needless to say, I am back on Weight Watchers. My weigh in days are Friday, so I will update you all about where I am then. I am guessing 161ish. My goal for my weight loss is to get down to 145-147 and then use 150 as my DANGER weight, where I know I have to go back to point counting.

145-150 should put me in a solid 10, as opposed to the solid 14 I am at now.

Combining Weight Watchers with working out has always been important to me, and the benefits of working out are so much more than weight loss. Back when I originally lost weight on WW, I was doing "The Firm" tapes, and really seeing a difference. I know weight lifting is so important, but I've been out of the lifting loop these days.

Weight lifting, combined with jogging/walking and yoga is my workout plan. I want to be consistent, hence the goals I am about to set.

November goals:

Jog/walks: 9
Weights workouts: 6
Yoga workouts: 6

Stick to Weight Watchers 90% of the time.

Now, some of you may be wondering why my goals for this month are so modest, and it's because I'm having a bit of a bad time with my personal life due to the end of my most recent relationship. I want to give myself time to grieve, have drinks and dinner with friends, enjoy the holidays and generally not stress too much about weight loss. Perhaps this isn't the best way to start this journey, but I want to be a bit gentle on myself to start.

My relationship with this man is long and complicated, and I am not quite sure it is over. We are the epitome of on again/off again, and our "offs" are all about his issues.

Anyway, enough about that! I will update each Friday about my workouts for the week along with the dreaded weigh in!